Crash and Burn Idiot
On Oct. 21, 2013, I wrote a blog post on a previous website I had called “Run and Leap”. It was about my first experience in listening to the Divine and taking action. At that time I had no idea what I was doing or that it was in fact the Divine working on my soul. I just knew what I was doing in life did not give me joy or pleasure and change was needed. As of recently I’ve decided to take this same leap. My previous “Run and Leap” didn’t work out the way I thought it would only by my own doing. I was strayed off track. My track, that made me feel awesome and such a strong sense of self-love. I crashed and burned. I let comfort and stability make decisions and not my inner being. I’ve learned so much in these past four years. One of the most important things that I’ve learned is how you should not negotiate and compromise “living in joy”.
So many of us give up our dreams, desires and all the things that make us feel whole because of fear, stability, and all the feelings that are not joy related. Sucks!
The Universe loves you and I so much it won’t shut up or leave us alone. The ideas, the desires, the dreams….Yup!..All the Universe…trying to wake our asses up, rattle our souls so we can dance in our joy. I recently read an article from another blogger that wrote about, How come she couldn’t just live status quo? How come being a good Mom and Wife wasn’t enough?, Does she have to save lives or have to influence on others in order to be happy? My first thought was “WHAT IN THE HELL?”. I don’t know about you but the Universe is not letting me get away with that. Status Quo! Psh! Yeah right! I’m pretty sure that me living status quo is a disservice to my husband and kids. Here guys…you can have the blah Mom and Wife. I’ll cook your meals and clean your laundry but don’t get inspired by Mom she’s happy right here in Status Quo! I love being a Mom and Wife, well on most days, but is that who I am. No. I’m Wendy. I was her first. Now I sound like my children. My point is I will always have an obligation to honor Wendy, to love her and take good care of her. She’s all I got and my husband and kids rely on her.
Status Quo is safe, stable, quiet, all the things fear LOVES. By the way, I hate fear, I hate the feeling of fear, I hate all the stupid decisions I make based upon fear, I hate all the things I didn’t and don’t do because of fear. Let me tell you what the Universe does to me when I sit in Status Quo. “Wendy, what are you doing?”, “Wendy, why are you sitting here doing something you sort of like?”, “Wendy, you don’t belong here?”, “Wendy, Hello! Don’t Ignore me Wendy, I know you can hear me?”. This happens until my insides scream “ENOUGH.” I get it. I’m not living in joy. I’m just getting by. A change has to happen.
If you are not listening to the Universe just imagine all the gifts and joy you are missing out on. When I finally listened I give myself the opportunity to do what I’ve wanted to do for a long time. It was the one thing I would answer if you asked me “If you could do anything in the world what would it be?”. However, I never did it. I never pursued it. In fact, I made a million excuses why it would never work. I even had the nerve to keep asking the Universe “What am I supposed to be doing?”, “Please give me guidance.” Of course I had the answer all along. Why wouldn’t I know what would give me joy? I just didn’t listen. Once I’m on board the Universe is my number one supporter and the crazy coincidences and alignments that happen along the way is Law of Attraction.
So here I go again running and taking a leap but I would much rather be the idiot that crashes and burns from doing what I love then living Status Quo.
Cheers to living your dreams,
Wendy
Living in Joy
