The premonition
To get the context of this particular story you may want to read my other two blogs, The climb before the fall and The fall.
I love wild-ass synchronicities. I have premonition dreams quite often and my whole life. One night I had a dream my best friend was trying to take off on a hand glider/hot air balloon(it’s a dream bear with me), she kept running and jumping but couldn’t make it off the ground. In my dream, I was so sad for her but I kept encouraging her “you can do this.” I wanted her to fly so bad. The next day I called her to share the dream, thank God she’s a “woo” person like me, I was telling her the dream, and while I’m sharing she gets a message that literally would change her whole life. This situation would require her to take off…literally. The truth is she was having such a hard time spreading her wings and flying, to get out of a horrible situation hence her not being able to fly in my dream but finally in divine time she would be forced to spread those wings and fly. She now is living a life she never thought possible and I still cry thinking about it. I am stoked I got to be apart of it. It will go down as one of my most favorite life stories.
I get these premonitions often sometimes it’s about random people or people I know so I reach out and check on them, praying they don’t think I’m crazy. My most recent dream premonition I had a few months back. Of course, at the time I didn’t know it was going to be a premonition. In my dream, I asked my daughter, Lily, what would be the perfect word to get tattooed on me. She said, “Mom you should get “Trust” that’s a perfect one for you.” In my dream, I was so perplexed but was like ok. I got “trust” tattooed on my arm and when I looked down the lettering is in the shape of tattoo guns it freaks me out so bad in my dream but the tattoo artist says “don’t worry it can be fixed it’s not permanent.” I feel relieved and wake up.
I shared the dream with my bestie and don’t think about it again. You literally cannot make this shit up, about a month later, I had a huge life event that pushed me into a terrible depression. At first, I didn’t think about the dream about the word “trust” then one day the dream hit me and I said to myself “holy shit.” I need to trust. I need to trust the process, trust the universe has a plan, trust that it will all get better, trust myself…all the fuck I need to do right now is TRUST. Remember, the tattoo artist in my dream said “it’s not permanent.” Well of course tattoos are meant to be permanent but situations are not. It was a reminder that the space I am in at this moment will change. Wild shit right!?
The word “trust” became my mantra over this hard time. I had to trust things were going to get better, that this veil of darkness would get lifted, that my family and I would connect again, and that I will feel that sunny soul of mine again because the mind had taken over and it was out for vengeance.
Pre-depression and post-dream, I visited one of my former yoga students, Jimmy(Jimmy if you happen to read this we need to change that “former” part) who had happened to open a brand new tattoo shop, Mr. Lucky Tattoo in Dunkirk. He had just opened the tattoo shop and I wanted to check it out and show my support to Jimmy and John, the other owner, who I had not met yet, well at least I thought I hadn’t, another weird synchronicity. Plus, hanging out at a tattoo shop is super fun. Although my visiting and talking holes in their heads may not be so fun for them. I can’t help it…I love socializing. I think it’s why I pick up friends, well in my mind they’re my friends, wherever I go. I love people, connecting with them, and getting to know them and their stories. I think it’s so cool the characters we meet in our storyline. I leave the tattoo shop and know 100% I will be back for some tattoos, I had one in mind that I wanted Jimmy to do anyway. I fall into my shitty depression, think about “trust” the entire time, the veil is lifted, and wallah. I find my way back to the tattoo shop and of course it only makes sense that I get it permanently put on.
I assume for John the tattooer, my tattoo is the least exciting work he could probably do, very simple, didn’t take long to do but for me it means everything. It’s deliberately placed where I can see it on my right upper arm, our right side is our masculine side energetically and I think of these tattoos on my right arm as not only my healing side but the reminder of who I am and my strength. The bottom of the “trust” is a flame, I am a fire sign and fire represents the release and rebirth and you can travel through the word “trust” to get to the lotus, and spiritually you have to trust to get to the lotus. The lotus symbolizes spiritual enlightenment, wisdom, growth and grows from the mud ie the absolute shit times of life. What made this tattoo even more meaningful is John is a Sagittarius like me and his essence, that only us Sagittarians have, of being the sunshine of the zodiac is a reminder of my own light, if and when darkness may return. The Universe doesn’t make mistakes in who it brings into your life and when. You will find your teachers everywhere when you look closely and show up for your life.
If you are looking to get some ink work done I highly recommend Jimmy & John. The shop is brand new and pretty rad.
To my friends, yoga students, reiki peeps, and all you characters of my storyline you genuinely mean the world to me. When I think about all of you my heart bursts I have some awesome, all variety of life, people in my life. I will always continue to do my healing work so I can grow the love and confidence in myself that is so much easier to give outwardly to all of you. Thank you for being on this journey with me and reading all my woo shit.
Peace & Love, Wen
