I finally got professional photos done last week. Can I tell you how anxious I was about this? I was so worried about looking heavy and old. I even started talking myself into ways to get out of it. BUT, I thought “Nope, you ARE going.” I put together four outfits the night before knowing I really wanted a “Goddess” feel and clothes that were authentic to my personality. I met my photographer, Caitlyn, at her house and then we headed to a local beach. Caitlyn is a photographer I have adored for a couple of years now. There is something very magical about her work and maybe I feel connected to her because she’s a fellow Sagittarius and has a deep love for nature like I do.  

As you may know, it is January and cold as shit here in good ol Maryland. You can see in the picture above I have barely any clothes on but I chose this. I am a winter baby and there is something about this time of winter that is so peaceful and soothing. The silence is so enchanting. I have to say this was one of the most invigorating experiences I’ve ever had. I posed on these rocks feeling the strength and stability beneath my feet as I balanced on one foot, for “Dancer’s Pose.” The windswept over me and while I know it should have felt shocking, it felt refreshing. There were moments when the sun would peek out and graze over me with its presence like a warm blanket. I was absorbed in the nurturing sounds of the water as it was breaking at the shoreline. I began to see and feel her, this incredible force, this loving awareness of consciousness of who I truly am. Not the body, Not the mind, Just me, the magnificent soul sitting in this body having this deep connection to nature. I no longer gave the slightest shit about how the photos were going to turn out. I felt empowered in this body and knew the Goddess arrived.  

 We ventured to a different location in the woods. The woods are like the center of my being. My heart and soul are the mountains and woods. I continued to pose with no shoes and still dressed for warmer days. I found myself completely comfortable like my body had become acclimated to the briskness of the day. I was completely barefoot walking over brush and even felt the shock from stepping on a few thorny leaves. I laid upon fallen trees feeling the damp, pillow of moss, and devouring its earthy scent. I was so entangled in nature and its unconditional love that nothing else mattered. I understood with such clarity our relationship and our deep-rooted connection. Two energetic beings intertwined in an extraordinary moment.  

I am grateful for my dear photography friend, Caitlyn. She helped me connect to my inner goddess and higher consciousness where the feeling of undying love was going to burst open my heart. 

Please remember my sweet friend You are NOT your body or your thoughts. You are unbound, love.